Monday, March 16, 2009

U awake?

Right click, down click, reply.
Pt 1 of 1.
I am, but.
We were friends. We had a deal. Right?
It was working. Awkward, but OK. Ease would have come again.
Deep breath.
Thumb twitch, hesitation.
You broke it, broke me.
Send.
Pause.
Right click, down click, reply.
Pt 2 of 2.
And then so did I. Because I wanted to, wanted you.
Because you're fun to break things with,
and for an hour or two we were.
Send.

Pause.
Sorry to break off halfway through.
Pause.
I wish you hadn't asked, I hadn't answered,
Wish we didn't have to repave our road; it's barely mended.
Pause.
Backspace, backspace, right click, delete.

Expressing ourselves with 160 character bursts
in the haze of sleep/drink:
Misery was inevitable.
Expectations.
And now the sound is warped.
Click. Pause.
I had hoped curved roads could straighten;
It seemed for a time ours could.
Send - no! Shit.

The length between replies is excruciating.
I was over you, over this.
You brought it back.
Long key press, wet key press, salt key press.

Right click, scroll, delete your messages.
Hope against hope, furious click press
We'll forget this in the morning.
I'll forget you in the morning.

Long short, long short.
Scan. Pause. Blink. Scan again.
Wet salt smile, relief!
God I hope you mean it this time.
Left click, left click, long key press, off.

Breathe.
We'll repave, then. I am weary, but I hope -

2 comments:

Katherine said...

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IT IS ALLY said...

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